[There's a long pause, almost half a minute, as Minato decides how blunt to be here while Shinji's in his sharing mood. He doesn't want to take advantage of him, so not too much, but he won't flinch away either.]
Changing what's inside you is slow and hard. How you think of yourself, how you look at the world... It was only through accepting others' influences on me that my Persona grew stronger. That took a long time.
didn't you only get your persona five or six months before i came back?
[A 'long time.' Maybe. But Minato had faced the void of the Dark Hour for-- quite a long time, from his understanding. Like Mitsuru, though without the benefit of a Persona until recently. And then it was all in that last whirlwind year that things had come together and ended for them.]
maybe i'm no good with this kinda thing because it doesnt really make sense i can't just make shit up and think I'm better or that the world as a whole actually gives a damn about us or anyone else because that's stupid
Yes, in April. I assume I always had Orpheus, but I never needed to summon before. Shadows avoided me.
[Minato and Mitsuru really do have some things in common, and a lot of those commonalities that make her able to understand-- and sympathetic to-- Shinji's dilemma are the same ones that enable Minato to be as well.]
It won't care about you or about anyone. It never will. [Minato won't sugar coat things; he doesn't think he has to. This subject is one he knows intimately and he speaks on it readily.] But that doesn't matter. There's specific individuals who care about you, just as you care about specific others and not the whole world. It's alright that way.
You won't suddenly be better by thinking about it, anyway. My best advice... what worked for me... fake it for long enough, and it will start to become real.
I don't even have memories of it not existing, so I can't remember what my reaction was.
Well, it's important to have someone you don't pretend with, too. It's tiring, to keep those masks on. So with Akihiko-san and others, like Jaime-kun and Ken-kun and myself, sometimes if you need to, you can stop pretending for a while.
Otherwise... yes. Give it a try. Let me know how it goes.
them and hiro and tadashi is basically everyone i know i think i mean there's jacob too we'll see how it goes i guess can't say i'm really good at acting though
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Changing what's inside you is slow and hard. How you think of yourself, how you look at the world... It was only through accepting others' influences on me that my Persona grew stronger. That took a long time.
I'm confident that you can do it, too.
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[A 'long time.' Maybe. But Minato had faced the void of the Dark Hour for-- quite a long time, from his understanding. Like Mitsuru, though without the benefit of a Persona until recently. And then it was all in that last whirlwind year that things had come together and ended for them.]
maybe i'm no good with this kinda thing because it doesnt really make sense
i can't just make shit up and think I'm better or that the world as a whole actually gives a damn about us or anyone else
because that's stupid
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[Minato and Mitsuru really do have some things in common, and a lot of those commonalities that make her able to understand-- and sympathetic to-- Shinji's dilemma are the same ones that enable Minato to be as well.]
It won't care about you or about anyone. It never will. [Minato won't sugar coat things; he doesn't think he has to. This subject is one he knows intimately and he speaks on it readily.] But that doesn't matter. There's specific individuals who care about you, just as you care about specific others and not the whole world. It's alright that way.
You won't suddenly be better by thinking about it, anyway. My best advice... what worked for me... fake it for long enough, and it will start to become real.
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guess i don't remember a lot about when i first got out into the dark hour
i dunno if i even paid much attention to what the shadows were doing
[being too busy being goddamned terrified, after all.]
pick up a bunch of people and pretend everythings alright
man aki always calls me on that shit.
but it's worth a try
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Well, it's important to have someone you don't pretend with, too. It's tiring, to keep those masks on. So with Akihiko-san and others, like Jaime-kun and Ken-kun and myself, sometimes if you need to, you can stop pretending for a while.
Otherwise... yes. Give it a try. Let me know how it goes.
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i mean there's jacob too
we'll see how it goes i guess
can't say i'm really good at acting though
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Would you like me to introduce you to some others?
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i'd like that
[HE WILL REGRET THIS STATEMENT IMMENSELY WHEN HE'S NOT MIND-FUCKED]
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Okay. I'll think of who to introduce you to. Maybe we can go to the beach together one day this summer.
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the beach is alright
pretty hot though
we can bring aki, too. he's really bad at meeting people.
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